IT FEBUARYYYY AND ITS (i think 3 more days) TO CNY!!!

and and... i cant cope with maths BM and accounts. . ._.
science, history, IT , english, CE and even my moral?

BM, BC, ACC and PM teacher is torturous
i shall never judge teachers at by covers. NEVER
i actually thought they were good :'[
but it turns out, the bad ones are goooood :DD like sejarah teacher and science teacher
i still have fun debating with IT and BI teachers though :DD

and and and

i got production managing post in YE but its tough
you know whyyy?
cause my authorities are scary. . . ._.
sze yuen adalah MD
tasha jadi AMD
nicole terdapat quality check
rouqingg terkena secretary
dan dan....
manyak orang lagi yang saya kenal
tapi tak bersefahaman
._.

then i realised. . . .i have to drop out of CF cause my mom doesn't agree with me joining it. will share later *sobzz*
then then. . . .
i wanna cope up with my ko-kus too
but but... stupid school arrange us form 4 ppl in the afternoon. . .tired like shizz.

btwbtw, i jadi bass guitarist for BB weekly P&W sessions
they are awesome practises :D
and and. sir dissapointed me when he took my card and scan and print for the BB cny card T.T sedihhh
and and and and and....

I PASS MY FRIGGIN LONG AWAITED ENTS AND IM GOING FOR BNTS AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

and and...
i jadi commander in kadet bomba ._.
so random.


then then, that friggin uncle cut my hair short
like TB style and and ITS JUST BEFORE CNY
PIGGSS


and and and......

about friends?
i dunno.
i'm never sure about them.
i've lost all sense of connection and trust
i can randomly mix around with ppl
but it still feels lonely although u have a sms partner and hovering friends
cause.... there's no one you can really trust enough to tell your problems anymore
which makes me feel very unstable at school sometimes. . .
and and and
i miss hugs. . .
i miss the times when i can randomly just put my head on my friend's shoulder and cry.
i miss the fact that. . . .i can blabber everything out to ppl like back in primary school when the guys were still there.



growing up sucks ._.


-BR-



-does going forward neeed to seperate the ones at the back like how a boat runs through the waters?-

hey ppl. its...the fourth week of school? i dunno.
its been fkkin tiring and stressed and hectic. D:

ICT class is so friggin boring.
Maths just keeps on going without waiting,
i depise my chinese malay and another teacher whom i forgot taught me what subject.
and my hand hurts like shit when praticing on bass guitar.


anyways, i've been so addicted to worship songs lately that i realised i became more holy. not that i'm bragging but i realised i've change?

must be because of Johann's influence ==

and i also became protestant about the term on....

WHY DO PPL NEED A BF/GF AT HIGH SCHOOL?!

you wont be able to go out all the time
you'll just be smsin each other
you'll slack in studies
you'll waste phone credit for some 23 hours lovey-dovey crap talk
AND
you'll eventually get caught and have to break up

then you get upset
you get torn into pieces
you just wan2 hold on to your "LOVE"
and when you're little weak heart cant take it any more

you commit suicide. [that's just the worst case scenario]

or maybe you'll just grow emo, just plain stupider and fall in love again
and maybe get laid for satisfaction and turn to prostitution very fast :D


isn't this world so predictable?
it just the same thing all over and over again
there's no such thing as a generation gap when you scream at your parents 'you dont know me'

its either they experienced it and never realise
or they never experienced it.

the stupid life of an earthly being has never got any more stupid.
no wonder all the story book plots are the same and thus created "FICTION"



-BR-


-can humans be anymore stupid?-

i'm feeling rather nonchalant...or whatever it means...

very tired, hungry, pissed off, lonely, lost, but at the same time feeling nothing.



i wonder if they have a word describing: "feeling-less" in the world oxford dict
maybe its "emotionless"



nothing else to say .__.

-BR-



-am i going mad or something?-

btw, i joined friggin 5 clubs in school.

when god told us that we're never alone. there's somehow always a thought appearing in my head saying, "you're lying father."

maybe its because of the earthly ways we experienced and resulted we wont believe in God's faith anymore...

so where is everything i used to trust in?
in a box?
in a pit of no end
or some where deep in my conscience that just hides itself.


i'm not being myself anymore.

-BR-



-stupid world-

some how, i've seen so many blogs and i just realised...

I din make a friggin 2010 resolution list =_=
so i'll just make a short one for now and add more on the way then :D

1.FOCUS on studies MORE.
2.jadi bassist for church under johann's teachings asap :DD
3.be a good person
4.follow god's, mom's and school's rules at my very best.
5.control my sudden addiction to facebook.
6.control amount of time wasted on doodling
7.control level of desire to shop
8.try to get P4A a cleanliness placing soon.[you'll know why]
9.try to talk more
10.balance my time without tuition and loads of activities
11.a B for chinese would be good :D
12.save up for SOME stuff.
13.start writting a diary in chinese.

that's it for now?

anywayss back on P4A

my class...is based on Teras+Accounts+ICT
and the first worse news i ever received this year was
we became the first batch for a new format [again]
i became a friggin cleanliness officer
and there's no revision for ICT.

enough of that...moving on...
my...
*history teacher is the "chinese turkey" and i cant tafsir anything she said through her strange slang.

*english teacher is awesome :DD

*maths teacher is great

*accounts teacher is very nice

*chinese teacher is a new transfer from phortay who became our school discipline teacher and has this awkward taiwanese slang

*B.Malaysia teacher is very fast

*science teacher is also under strange pronounciation and discipline group

*PJ teacher always seems so nervous

*ICT teachers are awesome

*moral teacher is super blur

*civic teacher is cool

and my classmates?
very hard to associate with T__T



and aside of class...
i cant find a right day and time for tuition classes
so in the end i had to rely on my own now T__T
plus...
i'm taking bass guitar and hopefully acoustic guitar lessons to in church :DDD
wheeeeeeeeeeee.....thanks to johann XD
and....................


a clear warning to all people who's reading this and knows me and had asked me out

I'M BANNED FROM GOING FOR MOVIES OR TO MALLS OR OUTINGS THAT ARE NO BENEFITS.

why?
ask the friggin monster witch i'm living with under a roof. =__=


till then...

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :DD


-BR-

-man this was some random post...-

hey readers. my blog died since the near end of last year.
so i need a new starting for this.

in 2010, i will spend my "sweet 16" in P4A in ICT and accounts class.
so let's just see how this year will be then shall we?



wait for updates then toodle XD



-BR-


-afternoon school makes me sleepy and my history teacher hates me-